What do you think—does life have meaning?Or do you simply want it to? Because if life has no purpose… do you matter? Let me tell you a story. When I was diagnosed with a serious illness and scheduled for surgery, I was in Poland. Communicating with the doctors was difficult, and they made it painfullyContinue reading “Life, Meaning, and Purpose”
Author Archives: Marzieh Bahmani
From Ashes
Excitement or fear—my higher mind observes.It knows the edge. Trying to build somethingfrom the ashes of an old lifesounds poetic.But when you rise,you rise with every memoryetched into your bones. Is that what we want?Because it’s familiar?So we keep the pain.Because maybe—deep down—we think we deserve it. The poet once wrote:“Fire told the empty man,humansContinue reading “From Ashes”
Inside the Cage
In meditation,I enter a vast roomat the center of my mind. One wall is filled withscreens flickering with light.Two giant gates on opposite sides.Behind me,a pool flowing into another pool,and above it—a chair. She sits there.My higher self.Cloaked like a shadow,still and knowing. And me?I sit in that room,surrounded by darkness,waiting for a flicker ofContinue reading “Inside the Cage”
Where the Light Touches Nothing!
I feel like a prisoner—trapped within my own body, which has become a cage. My mind, once free, now paces behind invisible bars. In meditation, I often find myself in a vast room at the center of my consciousness. One wall is lined with countless screen-like windows, each flickering with distant light. Two large gatesContinue reading “Where the Light Touches Nothing!”
“Navigating Vulnerability”
I’ve been reflecting on something lately. I struggle with vulnerability, and asking for help feels especially difficult for me. Recently, I decided to push myself and see what happens if I ask for help more often. I reached out to a friend for assistance with a task. He agreed to help on a specific day,Continue reading ““Navigating Vulnerability””
Enduring the Unseen: My Journey and Health Struggles
As clarity begins to take hold in my mind, I feel compelled to share my story with you. Eight years ago, I was diagnosed with uterine fibroids (myomas). Despite consulting numerous doctors, I received no definitive diagnosis and was often told that my pain was normal and would disappear after childbirth. This dismissive attitude, whichContinue reading “Enduring the Unseen: My Journey and Health Struggles”
I am freaking out …
I wish I could cry. I wish I could complain. I wish I could be afraid. I wish I could just collapse. It’s so difficult to show my emotions. I don’t have anyone to rely on. He left me when I needed him the most. Looking back, I think if he had stayed, he wouldContinue reading “I am freaking out …”
The Dark Emissary
The room was dim, the air heavy with the weight of unseen emotions. A figure stepped out of the shadows, their presence both familiar and unsettling. “Do you know why I am here? Do you know what I need you to do?” The words echoed in the silence; each syllable laced with a haunting familiarity.Continue reading “The Dark Emissary”
The Neurodivergent Struggle: Living with Emotional Turmoil
It got to me again, there is a monster within who wants to get out. so in rage, so in pain, so alone… it gets happy too fast and so excited, it gets upset so fast and so sad, there is no control whatsoever. Chaos is my Name. These words may resonate deeply with manyContinue reading “The Neurodivergent Struggle: Living with Emotional Turmoil”
status quote “It is ME”
Surrounded by noise, every single moment of being awake. It is in my head, sometimes impossible to ignore. Maybe one day it will go away—the day I can finally fall asleep and forget about everything and everyone. I could go wherever I desire, whenever I see fit. Sitting near the water, listening to the streamContinue reading “status quote “It is ME””
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