Surrounded by noise, every single moment of being awake. It is in my head, sometimes impossible to ignore. Maybe one day it will go away—the day I can finally fall asleep and forget about everything and everyone. I could go wherever I desire, whenever I see fit. Sitting near the water, listening to the stream flow across the ground and carve its path, indifferent to anything or anyone, it just goes and goes, never stopping. That is the sound of life in its purest flow. Every single rhythm is a moment of life passing, making way for the next.
I feel something I cannot quite understand. These days, everything is chaotic. I am exhausted from trying to decipher why my gut feelings are not clear to me. I do things, make decisions, and act upon them without knowing what my gut is telling me. Sometimes, it feels like my body is separated from my mind.
Then, I suddenly realize: it is me who is going to help me—my mind and my gut together.
There are times when a few droplets of water splash on top of the stream and try to escape the flow. I feel like those droplets nowadays, trying to break free from this sanctuary of normalcy…
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