Being in the state of unbalanced swaying from two extreme edges, being so emotional and being so cold, how one can manage it. One becomes so impatient and intolerable for oneself or maybe for others. There is a voice in her head telling her, be yourself, just be yourself. But how ? You can be yourself only if you know who you are.
That is the question she is asking herself for very long time, who am I ? she doesn’t know what is it that she want the most. Does she want something? A voice in her head telling her, of course you want love, you want family. She can’t trust the voice. she question it why and to what end? what love can bring me, what family can give me?
suffering, pain, hardship and loneliness. Is it what you want ? There is a chest hidden deep under the mountain on a very far away Island in the middle of ocean. A treasure is inside the chest. It is treasure and it will remain treasure until it remains inside the chest. what will you do if you have the map to the chest? would you go on a journey to find the chest and take the treasure or you just let it be hidden for ever. what is more valuable ?
This hidden treasure is a secret. very important one. not meant to be found, she wonders.
She wonders all the time about other probable universes, the one she didn’t suffer in it. or the one she doesn’t exist there anymore. She wonders about her other selfs. The time the space the vacuum. if everything could stop for a moment. no nothing , not a wind on her face, not a warmth of a touch, quiet, dark, cold and the void.
what is her journey. To feel everything, whatever she desire. she need to open the chest once and for all!!
Marzieh B blog 